Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Pushing Through the Struggle

When did things change for the worse?
I'm feeling more distant from you...
     All of you.

I keep reminding myself
Things will get better
That I'll get through this
That it'll just take a little more effort
And I'll be back on my feet again.

I'm trying not to complain
I tell everyone I'm doing ok
...not to worry.
I lie to them
I don't know why.

I distance myself
I'm not even talking to my two best friends
At least not as much as I should
They have their own issues
And I can't add to their stress.

I'll deal with this
I've dealt with worse
I'll figure it out
I'll end up on top

This won't last
It's happening for a reason
God is always teaching me
And guiding me
I still believe everything He's shown me
No matter who says otherwise.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

What to Wear

We're going out tonight
Dinner and a show
You ask what should you wear
I say "I don't know"

I get up and follow
As you sigh and walk away
You stand in your closet
I stand in the doorway

You toss a dress to the bed
Another falls to the floor
I smile as I catch your hand
And ask "What are you looking for?"

I pull you closer
And whisper in your ear
I thought about it
I know what you should wear

Just brush your hand through your hair
Like when you get nervous
It reminds me of our first date
And how kissing you took all my courage

I want you to wear those eyes
The dark ones that warm my heart
They look beautiful in any light
Like a true work of art

And could you wear that smile
The one that lights up the room
It would accent your eyes
Like the sun lights the moon

And I'd like you to bring your touch
The one that holds my hand
And erases all my worries
And make it tender, if you can

Of course you'd have to bring your voice
Bring the soft one and the firm one
They go together perfectly
Like a duet beautifully sung

And if you would bring along your heart
So that I can hold it for you,
I'll protect it with my life
And love it like only I can do.

Friday, September 16, 2011

It's just temporary

I'm getting more stressed as the days go on.
I'm in pain with my neck.
I'm having trouble with the insurance company.
It's starting to look like I won't have a job soon.
No income.
No benefits.
Just me and the endless onslaught of people who need help.

I'm unhappy with many things.
I'm trying to turn my mind around.
Trying to make things positive.
I know this is all temporary.

Thursday, September 15, 2011


I'm laying here...

My thoughts are scattered..
     Longing for a taste...
          Flinching with pain...
     Yearning to explore...
          Thinking of work...
Touching the heavens
     With my thoughts of friends
Dreaming of the future
     And the success I'm building

I could die tomorrow
With nothing to leave
No child or legacy
No fortune or gift

I've been given stress
     That doesn't belong to me.
But I took it anyway
     Because it's what I do.

Friends are in need
And I'm giving more than I have.
No hope of repayment
No reward for the work.

All I can do
Is smile with God.
He's the only one who knows
He's the only one helping.