I'm probably not in the best state of mind to be writing,
but I don't care tonight.
That's what I'm supposed to be using this for right?
To empty out my head...
To share these sacred thoughts...
With so many things.
And so many people.
I get frustrated
When people think they know me better than I do.
I spent nine years alone..
Just so I could explore myself
And figure out why I am who I am
And why I do the things I do
And why I think the way I think.
Nine years it took me..
To find myself.
I don't even know why I'm talking about all that.
I'm just in a horrible mood.
I wish someone would just break it for me..
Cause there are a few people who certainly could..
I'll always be the one who gives..
I made that choice a long time ago.
Sometimes I just wish I didn't choose that way..
but that feeling doesn't last.
I'll be ok.
I just might need a little nudge.